21, so I'm a legal alcoholic. jk... sorta. A heart of gold. West Coastin'. The City of Angels is where my heart resides. I'm a Slauson Baby. (2 live & DIE in L.A!) Perseverance. Motivation. Goals. Music. I'm a dreamer who's turning her thoughts into reality... and trying to find herself in between, so bare with me. I don't bite, unless you're into that kinda thing.
I have my job interview (which if I may add I know I will fucking nail!).
It’s not till the afternoon, so after I think I’m just going to go for a walk in Santa Monica.. I haven’t done that in a looooong time. And I need it.
Till then, because I need major distractions.. I will be watching Pitch Perfect… AGAIN.
After all this time, you & I still got that thingggg.
I lay here on my bed, no shame, no embarrassment anymore. I put my pride aside. I can finally say it now… “you won”. I can’t believe it actually kinda hurt to say that right now. I’ve never said it without completely meaning it like I do right now. I’m in complete shock from my reaction to this. I didn’t think I would cry about this anymore. I suppose some feelings hadn’t gone away.
You won. You got it all. I guess to be honest, I never really had it I just thought I did. Man that hurts more to say. But then I say to myself, what if I had won? I would be her 10 years from now. Believe me, that is not a happy life. I deserve better and I will never ever settle for anything less.
I will remain with my head held high. NO regrets.
He said to me “I was beginning to think I was your New Years resolution”.
Oh, if only you knew.